i can't name this

i am so strong right now
that i could kill an entire family
with just my teeth
pulling out their eyeballs, strand by strand
drinking all of their lovely blood
perfectly
powerfully
permanently

i am so awful right now
that i could kill an entire family
with just my teeth
watching them scream relentlessly, limb by limb
desecrated
and they will never wake up
ever
ever
ever

i am so sad right now
that i could kill an entire family
with just my teeth
my mom is apologizing for everything, one by one
as she clings to my sister's body
and i deserve this to the
fucking
last
bone

i am so worthless right now
that i could kill an entire family
with just my teeth
and write about it, to make myself read it, over and over
because i am not allowed near orange plastic bottles
or sharp things anymore
and sometimes
i wish i
wasn't
right now